Blah. Having a very blah week. I hate feeling like this. I always feel so insignificant. I just hide it better sometimes. I think it’s why i don’t do so well at group things. I always feel like I’ve just been tacked on to things. I never feel like I’m just able to fit in with anything. Well that isn’t necessarily true. I just never feel like I’m good enough to be there. He’ll it could be going out with friends or group sex. I always feel like i don’t belong. I love Awl dearly but sometimes i wonder why he’s with me and i can see around me that he could do so much better. He is a wonderful husband and dom but no matter how many times he says he loves me i still wonder why sometimes. And the really sad thing is, I used to be a lot more insecure. Beh just the tired cold medicine induced ramblings of Squee